Draft Letter I Could Never Send To You, And Never Will

Dear Mr P,

Good afternoon, Mr P! How are you? Doing good with your girl? Let's take it as yes because I see that you're finally going public with your relationship since I saw your dp with your girl. Your girl is sho cute I must say. In case you're wondering (but i doubt you'll ever find this letter anyway) I wrote this because this has been bothering me since days, probably if I dig deeper, It has been lingering since the day we said goodbyes to each other, perhaps, almost year ago. So, I'll just let it all out by typing this long-ass-cringey letter so I (hope) I could feel better after, since i knew, if i told just anyone about this, they might just see me as a vulnerable being, and i don't wanna be viewed like that, especially with people i knew.

Okay, back to the things-i-wanted-to-tell-you-but-i-choose-not-to. Boy, I don't miss you in romantic way nor I want your presence next to me whispering comforting things so that I could feel better. I believed I have moved on but sometimes, the thought of you are still lingering on my head. You left a questionable scar on my heart, because I don't know if I really hated you or just want to hear more explanation from you.

Our first meeting were kinda awkward, I know. My friend said you were handsome and kinda my type, but I didn't believe her at first since your display picture were facing other way so I couldn't see your face clearly lol.  I didn't expect too much from you,  I feel like i was out of your league, even I've thought my friend were joking when she said she wanted to introduce me to one of her seniors.

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You messaged me first.

After days of talking to each other thru messaging app, you suddenly wanted to picked me up at train station which was marked as the day we 1st met, and the first time, a guy, who isn't my father, became an Imaam for maghrib prayer. In our first met. I was going cray

You are the type most girls probably hate, because you took minutes, even hours to reply, or no reply at all AFTER you read the messages. But i always got your reasons, you fall asleep, you were busy, your schedule with your friends, i got it. By then, I used to your habit of messaging. I never complained much, instead, I tried to understand your position, even though I was going crazy inside just to see a reply from you.

It's my first music festival experience ever, to attend, with a guy.

We met up at train station to the festival, and spent the days beautifully. We walked along, nearly a mile, hand-in-hands, to the venue, very happily, eventhough we both drenched by sweat. I was glad because we could saw Lenka's performance not too far from the stage, and sang along eventhough we both didn't know her song that well. And although we didn't watch all performers thru the end of event and were rushing off just to make sure you got your last train, i was genuinely happy. I was dying and contemplating inside if i should update my social media so that everyone could see how happy I was spending the day with you.

You know what happened now? Yes you guessed it right. I don't even want to hear songs by Lenka ever again because it just reminds me of you, or the day i got to spent with you. I. detested. it. so. much.

The Boy was turning 20!

That was the first time a guy spent a birthday with me, only me. I felt so special. You promised me that we were going somewhere to celebrate your birthday. I, too, looking forward for the day very much. I already got you a present, I choose a blue jumper by Pull & Bear and bought a red velvet cake, spent nearly thousands rupiahs for a first  time, to a guy (and we weren't a thing at that time yet) and not regretted it. (But now, I am)

We watched a movie, had a delicious dinner, took photos, and enjoyed the night scenery which were really beautiful that time. As you drove me home, you took a longer way than usual just because you said you wanted to spent more time with me before we reach my home. I probably went "awww" and blurted out random things at that time but trust me I felt amazing.

We finally became a 'thing'.

Dates after dates, we finally reached the relationship stage. It wasn't complicated at all, and we got along very well. Except, you left without a clear explanation after a 30 days.

When we were a thing, I felt beautiful, the feels of longing for someone and vice versa itself had took an amazing effect on myself.  I always wanted to look beautiful in front of you, with the way I did my make up, the way I spoke to you, even when we talked on messenger apps.

That time, we didn't meet for almost a month, when before, we used to meet just for a lunch, dinner, or a talk, probably once a week or more. I tried to understand that you were having midterms so I didn't try to arrange a date. But you, suddenly left me hanging like an idiot. You removed me from social media, and didn't even take a look at my last messages (we were talking just fine before). That's when I thought our relationship were ended and i tried to not be bothered by it.

I thought the reason you were missing was because you had problems with your parents, uni, or friends so that you didn't want to speak to anyone. I don't even know who your friends were instead of that one junior who also my friend too, but she said she didn't know, or maybe he's just bored with you, idk (and i was so mad at her at that time but little did i know, she had some problems too at that time, and we're all good now) and thus why i don;;t have the chance to ask them what's going on with you.

You finally replied my messages

....a WEEK after, with your weak reasoning. You said that you had your reasons which COULDN'T be explained but i was tired and just ate up whatever your reason was because i thought we were already done long before his explanations.

I accidentally found his instagram account, 

not long after our breakup, which is locked. I knew he created it not too long before i found it because I have searched his name before but there weren't one of his account, neither his followers and following numbers were that much for someone who're long in instagram. What surprised me to death was, his profile picture was him, with a girl, which later i found out that she is indeed his 'new' girlfriend (which was his ex-girlfriend too), thanks to my friend who informed me that his whatsapp profile picture are indeed him with the said girlfriend i saw on instagram. By then, i deleted all of our photos that we took, and blocked and deleted your contact right away.

Did you know how I feel at that time?

Anger? Mad? Sad? Dissapointed? Well, i couldn't handle it. That's when i lost my mind, and confident too. I felt deceived, ugly, humiliated, you name it all. I keep wondering what could possibly go wrong with us, what's wrong with me, am i not beautiful enough, am i not worthy enough to be loved, did he hate the gift i gave him, did he hate the way i talk, did i complained to much, and so on, which is not good. What's good is that i wasn't able to show him to anyone just yet and i thanked myself for doing that.

Yes, people, I was already cheated but he cleaned up his mess and image well before i found his shits. That's when i mad not only at you, but myself as well for letting a douche came close and messing me up. I might took a screenshot and made you as laughing stock with my cliques, but very very deep inside, i was very, very ashamed in front of them.

You may see me like i'm not affected by it at all. You may see my internet persona as a cold, witty, sarcastic and not caring about lovey dovey things at all. Hey, even if i did, the person i wanted to know the most won't know and didn't care at all so, what's the point? But really man, you can never tell a person by its photos nor what they posted on social media accounts because that's only show what they wanted to show.

The feel of knowing that you were cheated and deceived are humiliating, I must say. I am trully an idiot for believing a person so much and sadly you probably don't even know i already found your shit since then, because you even had the courage to sell a FCKNG concert tix to me after all the things you did :) i tend to avoid any confrontations and dramas plus we were already done so i don't want to ask you anything about that.

After all that, yes I kinda talk here and there with some guys but we were going nowhere. But you and all your mess keep popping up on my mind, make me angrier even more, because we already created so much memories before i learnt where the erase button is. Many things remind me of you, and deep down in my heart i hope i could meet you once again, face to face, just to hear your clear explanation of all these. But you seem happy with your girl now so I don't want to bother you with my not so important rants. I just hope when we destined to meet each other some other time, i won't ge remembered about things you've done anymore, I hope i'll laugh it off like it doesn't affect me at all, and you are just ones of my lesson learned i have to learnt.

Until we meet again,


A

Announcement

hai
apakabar blog
ih sebel ya sekarang blogger udah gak terlalu rame jaman gua smp rame banget blogwalking dsb dst

ini blog juga udah jarang keurus sih haaa talk to my hand
tapi, kayanya gue gada niatan delete-delete post  terus re-branding blog gue deh. Let's keep it as it is. Lagian gue gada bakat tuh design design aesthetic slash hypebeast-ish style gitu. Apaan 8 tahun punya blog isinya gada kemajuan, tidak memberikan inspiresyen bagi kawula muda Indonesia hhh malah nyampah. but it's ok yang baca juga gada kecuali tuan tuan malaysia yang ngiklan di chat box sebelah kanan gua bisa dilihat ya teman-teman

Tanpa mengurangi rasa malu dan hormat, blog ini juga ga akan gue delete. Yep, altough i never really promoted my blog elsewhere other than my close friends, itu juga cuma temen smp, tapi blog ini akan gue keep. Entah sampai kapan, tapi ini bisa jadi lahan refleksi diri gue sih dulu tuh gue setai apa atau sewise apa atau buat nostalgia-nostalgia lucu aja. Dulu, i'll keep my mom updated with my blog tuh circa 2009 beliau suka baca sampai gue harus ganti url beberapa kali karena some posts contain curse words and cringed stories which is embarassing. Let's keep this one as my personal slash semi public diary/time capsule/my life storage and yadda yadda you name it.

DAAAAAAAN gue berencana bakal supeeeeer nyampah sih disini. Kayak sebulan posting beberapa posts gitu loh, because i realized my other sns such as twitter, ig, path, snapchat itu bikin gue insecure untuk share-share hal yang menurut gue tuh ''i'm going to tell anyone about this'' tapi disatu sisi ''but this person, and that person, oh and those friends too, don't have to know'' ngerti kan, biasalah sns lain tuh ladang pencitraan (dan gue-nya juga yang males update apapun, males dikomen orang-orang). However, blogger is no different either, seenggaknya gabanyak yang follow dan update juga, and i don't have to be afraid to share cringey stuffs here.

Kebayang aja gitu kan, Allysa, F, 35 with one daughter and one son liat blog ini terus kayak ''anjir..'' ya gapapa gaakan malu kok ngga (terms and conditions apply).

OH iya mau cerita tentang bokap gua ah tapi di next post aja ya kalo gua masih inget, abisan ntar keluar konteks dari tujuan post ini, so let's end this post by saying

nakal gaboleh, jangan bego by awwwwwwllysa

Dear 10 Years Later Me

A.k.a 28 yo Allysa

hi,
this is me writing this letter on 25th September 11.48 PM.
well, this is awkward but hi honey. this is 18 y.o you speaking..
apa kabar? how's life? lagi sibuk kerja ya sekarang..oiya si dedek udah dikasih susu belom? ntar ngerengek lagi.
si papah juga udah pulang kantor apa belom sih? telfon coba kalo belom pulang, khawatir kenapa kenapa deh.

btw lagi tanggal tua nih, masih cukup kan buat makan sama susu si adek?. jangan lupa si adek kalo bisa udah diajarin makan sendiri biar mandiri plus gemesin kayak song triplets. jangan manja sama anak sendiri! jangan males! ntar anaklo nyontoh yang gabaek lagi.
 semangat kerjaannya! kalo ada deadline kerjain dulu sebelom baca tulisan gue, oke? oiya anaklo pastiin udah tidur juga ya. jangan ngalong mulu kayak emaknya.

hm tadi gue abis nyelesein tugas manajemen huhu mager banget deh mana schedule makin penuh aja. kangen rumah D: sabtu simulasi aksi panas-panasan lagi deh. jangan lupa perawatan kulit hoy gila sekarang aja depok makin panas gimana jaman lo ya. semangat deh.

gue lagi ngambis banget jir sekarang gatau kenapa tapi takut hasilnya fail..elah galau huhuh sekarang mah lo ora galau-galauan ya iyalah enak tinggal nunggu pulang suami main sama anak-anak deh.
eh kalo ngajak jalan keluarga lo yang asik gitu jangan ke mall mulu, anaklo konsumtif entar. oiya anaklo juga ajak maen sama anak seumurannya ya.

gimana dong gue lagi super insecure nih sama semuanya. hu gue bakalan usaha deh supaya bisa sepede pas lo baca ini. biar lo bisa senyam senyum pas baca ini sambil bilang 'elah udah tenang aja coy yang disini hidup nyaman, tentram, suami sayang, anak senang'

eh nyet sekarang lo masih suka pria ber-bb cream gaksih? haduh plis jangan sampe ya kasian laki lo tuh kalo hobi lo nontonin gituan mulu. tapi cerita-cerita ke anaklo boleh lah ya jaman-jaman lo bela-belain nabung beli tix konser oppa sampe rela antri gada ruang napas demi liat lelaki-lelaki bermekap. ini aja album sama poster gue bingung taro mana jir di kosan sempit gini. dibawa ke rumah gamungkin. masih disimpen kan ya album-albumnya mayan tuh jadi album vintage ntar dijual. btw bias gue apa kabar tuh, pcy? masih sama grupnya? ceilah gaya banget. kalo daniel gimana? tattoonya udah sampe idung? beenzino masih ngeluarin album kan? wakakak.

udah bisa masak apaan aja lo. cerita sini sama gua jangan mentok cuma di spaggheti sama nasi goreng keles. malu ama mertua lo.
gimana S2 nya? ga ninggal anaklo kan? eh bokap nyokap gue apa kabar. lupa daritadi nanyain keluarga kecil doang.

jangan lupa tuh urus juga bokap nyokap lo. lo bisa kaya gini gara-gara siape gila. siape lagi yang bawelin lo kalo nyetir jangan ngebut. wey gue aja masih suka ditelfonin kalo pulang malem walau ada tebengan. jangan suka asik ma temen kongkow ah sampe ortu sendiri dilupain. gabaek. tengoklah kalo bisa sering-sering.


kalo lo baca ini berarti masih ada blogger ya. alhamdulillah kalo gitu surat gua kebaca heu. c u ah gua mau tidurm lo tidur juga udah jam berapa ini diamuk laki lo ntar.

to 10 years later me, hope you're doing well and dont forget to smile jangan jutek ya, kalo ada arisan tetangga dateng jangan males

well im safe and sound here while writing these so i hope the same goes for you, too. dont push yourself too much. sayangi keluarga ya apapun masalah lo sekarang semoga cepet kelar dan selesai dengan damai. aameen


With love,

18 y.o Allysa

Pencapaian Hidup

Lagi browsing akun-akun sosmed yang gue punya. Terus buka formspring yang notabene orang orang udah jarang buka. Abis itu liat question question yang gue jawab terus gue liat ini;

Hhehehe lucu aja gitu ya kelas satu sma malah gue belom ada bayang-bayang gue mau kemana dan mau jadi apa tapi asal jawab aja. i answered this question when i was on the 1st grade of high school if im not mistaken. aaaaaaaand tadaaa here i am proudly become one of the yellow jacket family. Alhamdullah. so buat kalian-kalian hati hati kalau berbicara siapa tau doa kalian didengar sama yang diatas. xoxo wassalam

Sounds Perfect for Me :)

Correct

"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others hearts. You'll fight with your bestfriend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you......."

Happy Anniversary!!!!!!!!

Lah cha salah judul? Kaga kaga bukan gua yg anniv dodol..... Jadi yang anniv Siapa? Mama w sama bapak w. Yah telat postingnya sekarang. Ah lanjut. Yaudin...

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HAPPY 17th ANNIVERSARY MOM & DAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Semoga makin baik semua semuanya gada masalah masalah lagi makin sayang sama anaknya yang imut ini dan gak pelit :-] Semoga selalu diberi kesehatan dan panjang umur sampai icha berkeluarga nanti :D Semoga icha bisa kaya kalian yah!  I love you both! :-*

Ok editannya sangatlah alay. Babay :")

Today♥

Hai hallo! Hehe kangen ngepost disini. Pokoknya bloggy, aku mau cerita hari ini!Super-duper-menyenangkan! Dimulai dari bangun tidur itu dewa banget biasanya grasa-grusu nyiap2in segala macem buat kesekolah sekarang ngga. Basis selooon. Soalnya cuma ambil rapor. Wokelah.

Berangkat juga ke sekolah kan akhirnya. Wolswolsjae tuh, macet macet dinikmatin. Bodo amat mau jam berapa. Iyalah berangkat jam setengah 7 kurang padahal bagi rapornya jam 8-_-

Yaudah kan tuh nyampe di sekolah dikirain sekolah sepi, eh.....rame bgt ternyata ada upacara pelepasan kepala sekolah lama. Yahhh karna gue males masuk yaudah deh minta ayah parkir mobil depan CK trs nunggu di CK sampe upacara pelepasan selesai >:) *licik*

Ini bagi rapor sebenernya rese banget tauga pake murid musti ikut. Takut nilai jelek trs diomelin saat itu juga gimana:/ yaudah nyampe kelas terus gurunya ngmg2 gt lah skip...pas nama gue dipanggil udh nervous aja tuh mikir yg macem macem kalo sampe ada yg galulus gimana. Trs pas liat nilai...................................

jengjengjengjeng........

Alhamdulillah ga jelek jelek banget \:D/ Hehe. Ranking 11...hm alhamdulillah aja ya:) Ibu bilangnya malah kirain ke 18 asdgfdjgvk zonk. Pelajaran paling jelek tapi emang Mafia. Apalagi kimianya itu pas kkm banget dan gue tau itu ada dikatrol dikit, pembulatan sih-_- yah whatever yang penting semester dua ditingkatin lagi. Semangat yah kamu! *ngomong sendiri*

Terus pulangnya nemenin ibu dulu ke tanah abang. Abis dari situ, ke salon, hehe now i got my new haircut. Diratain gt. Wkwkwk gapenting, ok. skip.

Pas baru pulang darisana, Aji ngabarin katanya mau ke rumah. Heheh yaudah kan tuh nyampe rumah akhirnya buru2 ganti baju sgl macem keburu pacar dtg and.....gasempet mandi loh;;) wkwkwkwk sst ya diem diem;p

Yaudah deh si pacar dtg. Kita ntn The Spy Next Door sama I am Legend. Pas ntn si pacar makan muluuu wkwkwkkw. Si pacar ini perutnya karet bgt emang. Kan udh beli siomay trs pas ada tukang bakpaoo...dia tetep mau beli dan itu bakpao satu biji tuh lumayan gede lho-_-- krikzzzz

Terus yaudah abis ntn film, ntn tv sambil becanda becanda gt. Fyi, ya gue paling males kalo Aji tuh udh megang hp terus....candid2in guaa aaaaaaa malesin -_-z yaudah akhirnya bt kan tuh gua bt bgtbgtbgtt. Gua belaga kesel gt kan ke dia, bete pokoknya eh dia malah bikin muka sok imut kaya cherrybelle gt WAAAAA Gabisa ga ketawa kan jadinya akting gatottttt tp sumpah itu ketawa ketawa mulu jadinya kocak abis seru bgttttt. Hehe trs sekitar jam 7an minta anter beli makan abis itu dia pulang hehe thanks ya sipit♥

Hmm yaudah itu aja pokoknya wkwkwk mulai sekarang diusahain sering ngepost disini lagi deh hehe. Oiya, buat yg muslim jgn lupa besok kalo bisa puasa ya ya ya kan minggu lebaran haji. Hehe gue jg mau puasa nih insyaAllah. Okeeeeee, semoga besok lebih lebih baik dari hari ini :-)

Byeeeeeeeeeeee, xxo♥!

Tangga - Utuh

semakin ku ingkari, semakin ku mengerti
hidup ini tak lengkap tanpamu
aku mengaku bisa tapi hati tak bisa

reff:
sesungguhnya ku berpura-pura
relakan kau pilih cinta yang kau mau
sesungguhnya ku tak pernah rela
karena ku yang bisa membuat hatimu utuh

sakit yang ku rasa bukan karena dia
tapi karena kau pilih cinta yang salah
aku mengaku bisa tapi hati tak bisa

repeat reff

ku akui sesungguhnya aku berpura-pura
relakan kau pilih cinta yang kau mau
dan aku tak bisa

[rap]
tak bisa ku biarkan kau tersiksa
disisihkan cinta bertahta [?]
ku katakan padamu tempatmu di hati
cintaku membuatmu utuh

sesungguhnya ku tak pernah rela
karena ku yang bisa, karena hanya ku yang bisa
membuat hatimu utuh

Everything turns bad.

Assalamualaikum, saya kembali.

Dunnowhy, i feels everything turns bad now. Gak semua sih, sesi lebay gundah gulana dimulai. Wkwk apose jijay ah. Bodo ah mau curhat disini. Gada yang perduli juga kan? Fine :'3 husshut it.

Pertama. Masalah bts. guru gua itu a.k.a pak madu (mata $$an-nama disamarkan) wess songong. pertama gue ngusulin di pantai. gajauh2 kok, masih daerah Jakarta. eh pak madu bilang, ga ngizinin. katanya takut tsunami :") *that.what.we.called.hyperbole* terus milih di karawaci, sampe sempet selek sama kls 96. akhirnya kita menang. eh pak madu ngusulin transportnya naik hiba merah a.k.a metro mini.....krikrik djack' mania beraksi \m/ ogah amaaaaat yaidah.

lalu kita ganti tema lg. akhirnya milih di studio. gue rencana bikin efek black and white. foto di sekolah. anak cowok ga setuju, pengennya di h-i. uh cum on dude!, itu udh bykkk iwh. trs si cumy pake ngelobi pak madu, akhirnya dia marah2 sendiri gajelas. keputusannya akhirnya di taman barito. WTF WTH WTC WTS!!!!!!!! Apa2an nih, lo mau bts apa mau dagang sayur, hah? ok gnt. balik lagi ke tema item putih. dan lg2 pak madu marah. dia blg 'kalo kalian mau kyk gitu, saya ga ikut foto!' dih sapa yg mau foto elu? kmrn2 blg terserah sekarang apa apa ngatur. audah gua sebagai pantia bts pusing. temanya berubah2 mulu. ntar ada aja yg protes. ada aja kendalanya. ntar jg ganti lg nih, padahal kan tgl 6 februari kita udh photoshoot dan itu bntr lg!! *&+__((&&%%#@ hell ya!

Kedua. Masalah temen. Ya akhir2ini kyknya lg ada masalah byk bgt sama tmn2 gue. Yang mnfk lah, yang sensi. Dan ada yg ga ngerasa dianggep. Padahal mksd gue bukan gitu. Gue minta maaf kalo emg ada yang ngerasa ga dianggep. Tapi, gue masih nganggep sebagai tmn dkt gue. Pls, jgn gara2 masalah yg gua gangerti, jadi pada ngejauh. Dan ujung2nya jd lupa satu sama lain, bahkan jadi gakenal. Kalo ada apa-apa, omongin langsung. Jgn malah kyk gini. Gue kgn kita yg dulu. Pls, diomongin aja suka gak suka. Biar nyadar. Kalo lu lu semua pikir gua gak peka, lu salah. Gua peka sama apa yg terjadi sama kalian.Cuma tiap ditanya ada aoa pasti pada blg gapapa. gua makin gangerti. Gua gatau kedepannya kita bakal kyk gimana. Mana katanya papa cebok jaya selalu? Mana katanya c05's all base selalu dihati? Prove it lah. Jgn gedein ego masing masing, gabakal ada ujungnya. Gue harap, kita bisa akur lg kyk dulu, terbuka satu sama lain. Semoga kedepannya, bakal membaik ya, Amin :")

Trs apa lagi yaa wkwk apaan nih jijik, curhat? iye ngapa? woles bray. Apalagi ya, pokoknya skrg gua lagi konflik batin.....kiw bahasanya yagitulah tp udah janji sih sm diri sendiri h3h3. Trs katanya ada yg ngomongin salah satu dr c05 ya? Yelah apaansi perasaan pada nyari ribut amat dah. Pokoknya gua dll selonin dululah, basis woles 2011 \m/

udah cha udah, mau curhat sampe brp panjang? ykykyk iya ampun ampun. HYY READER! Doain aku ya, lulus uan dgn nem tertinggi, masuk sma yg diinginan, bahagia, mapan, sejahtera *muluk amiin!

as hot as summer in nyc.

bye!

WTH, they're my classmates 8force❤ part I

hey yomaaa! ada kartu perdana murah yang cihuy cuuy? ga ga gagitu. okedeh, kale ini posting yang rada spesies eh spesial gtyaaa. kan lo lo semua udah pada tau ya gue di kls 84? nah lo mau taukan orang-orang yang mewarnai hidupku saat duduk dibangku 84? ngga?batu jumroh ah hoo canda. daripada ngomong monyet mending batu jumroh kan? yah tetep aja kesebut. sut ah beresek. yasudah tinggal click close tab aja kok;) okedeh, gue kenalin yaaa

1.Leni Utami

cantik, baik, yg suka bnykk, kalem, msh sygg bgtt sama her-ex HO HO best❤

2.Prisnita Naulia Alamsyah

kacamata, jangkung, loyal trs trs apalagi ya, anak tgr heee canda. pokoknya aku rindu setengah mati deeeh ehe ehe

3.Ratih Radithya Utami

temen gue yg paling semoxxx, toa, trs seksi yega bang haji? hups. you can call her, limbad's child

4.Salsabila Zanjabil Hadiyatno

my rabbittsssss❤, toa juga kaya ratih, pinter nyablak, temen bacot gueeee, ayanK puji deh

5.Nadhifa Anvari

anaknya einstein. unyunyuuuu mau dong pinternya hoahaohaoah ketauan begonya ah gajadee

6.Pasis Pamungkas Wiradika

homonya kholis.gadeng. anaknya baik kok, asikdeh bagi kaum perempuan(?) tmn gawoelz gue dongskiii, lenje lenje najis gtt, single kok bagi yang kelaminnya jantan GA GITU SIS SALAH KETIK SUMPEH

7.Ninda Meisfandari Salsabila

cewe yang paling ganteng deeeeeh di 84. abas, behel trs trs apa ya boyish abis lah

8.Kholis Dana Prabowo

FOTO TIDAK LAYAK DITAMPILKAN

tmn curhat gue ttg.....adadeh HOA HOA tp anak 84 psti tau siapa gadenkkK hoonya pasis siapadulu trs ya trs rebek abis bnyk nanya bikin kesel, srg ngmg 'yauda beli beli berapa berapa...' so loyal abis, padahal kere mampos. mati ajalu woo chandha. hidupnya diabadikan untuk....beli gundam-_-

9.Resya Maulani

cantik, pinter, eksis, baik. kurang apa coba? pacar! yes, skrg dia single loh bagi kalian pejantan tangguh!

to be continued...

milikku~~

mereka milikku. heh? siape? mereka adalah ;

1.abhwang owjewwhk


ininih slalu stia tak kenal lelah. thankyouu veryveryverrryyyyyy much ya with abang yang satu ini. jangan lebay, ntar t2 marah ah. ha-bitch(?) dia selalu menemaniku kemanapun aku pergi ewkewkewk hari ini ajaya gue udah 3 kali naik owjewhk-_- mygoowwdhhh gue udah jadi pelanggan setia setiap saat layaknya rexona. jadi tuh gini, tiap gue pulang les itukan malem ya otchomaticc angkowdh udah gada sooooo, saya memilih dia sebagai pengantarku agar sampai dirumah. apakah nantinya akan tumbuh benih benih asmara? tak tau. jangan sampai. o-g-a-h-,- ya pokoknya gada lo ga pulang deh gue bang jek(?) lopyupulll

2.my 'bapoex' pencil case


keterangan :
merah;tanda tangan tipe-x seorang bejat gavlz (yoga-yg ngaku sendiri-_-)
birumuda;my name by leni
pink;ulah tangan-tangan jahil yang saya sebagai pemiliknya sendiri gatau-_-
hijau;mulai pudar karna usia-_-"

yaks, itu dia kondisi ter-apdet dari tempat pensil kuwh. ini juga neh yang paling setiaaa. asal lo tau yaaa, ini tmpt pensil udah dri jaman gue klsss 4/5 sd gidu, jadi haraf maqlum kalo misalnya rasa prihatiningsih anda tergugah karna tempatpensil ku minta di taro dimuseum sekali. gatauya gue males aja beli yg baru. suer deh udah pw. trss tmpat pensil ini juga bnykk bgtt kenangannya. dia saksi bisu gue pas gue nyoba-nyoba nyontek sm temen pas ulangan. dia saksi bisu gue pas gue lagi bercanda sm temen pas guru nerangin. dia saksi bisu gue saat gue nyimpen contekan di dalam tubuh hitamnya. dia saksi bisu gue pas gue diceramahin abis-abisan sama emak karna pr jadi numfuk. dia saksi bisu gue pas gue lagi fallinlove sama..... ah bnykk bgttlahya pokonya gabisa disebutin satusatu uuu sygbgtsmkm wkwkw apaseh jejek galocoh wo yadah udahan ah syesyewww bloggyana!

nb;hari ini ngegaul dulu di beyfek sama LeniLiaResyaNindaDhifa. nton aer terjun pengantin. ah emang dasar nyalimu seperti maling mentimun, gue cua nonton 1/3 filmnya nyahaha-,- trs abis itu pulang naek ojek trs les hm emak gue baek bener ninggal gue jadi gue (lagilagi) harus naik ojek ke tempat les-_- ah ojek memang solmetku(?)

quick update cuy

heyhoy! nilai uts ternyata udah pada keluar, sampai saat ini, alhamdulillah belom ada yang remed. ehe ehe check this out yawssss ;

Mtk : 86
B.Indo : 72,5
IPA : 85

baru itu ajasih. maksudku yang warna biru itu melebihi target, yang merah itu melesyet. semoga gada yang remed deh amiin amiin. aduh pr ku numpuk nih, wahahahasu ah sekolahnya. eiiiiiits, bukan salah sekolahnya, yang salah itu kamu sendiri keledai tidak mencicil pr-mu sendiri ahiya ampun madam.

ohiya lo bandingin deh postingan gue yang sekarang sama yang duluuu banget waktu gue pertama bikin blog. haduuh aib. mau diapus, tapi sayang. gue aja sebagai owner blog ini mual, gimana elo? eh gakerasa deh sekarang gue udah kls 8 aja, ntar kelas 9 deh, uan. kalo lulus mau masuk mana? lah tardulu, emang bakal lulus? giniajadeh, kalo gue lulus itu tanpa kesengajaan, kalo galulus memang sudah kodratmu nak. eh jangan ngomong gitu ah ntar beneran lagi. malu. okeyaudah ah itu doang hem bosyen deh akuwh, mau tidur tapi ntar pasti gue kesiangan les. kebonyaaaa gue-,- oke mau edit foto ah biarpun rada alay, oke see ya!